You never had to ask me to stay I built a home around the silence Learned to hear danger in the smallest change Before there was a reason to find it So I gave you the parts I could still reach Kept nothing hidden when you came close But some old voice keeps talking underneath Telling me warmth is where the damage starts I know your hands are not the ones that hurt me Still, my body remembers what my mind forgave A door can stay open after the fire And I can still be afraid to walk inside Cold. I know you love me I just don't always know how to feel it Something in the distance keeps changing shape Turning your silence into something I fear You give me warmth I reach for it and pull away Not because you aren't here I just learned to disappear before the hurt arrives Nothing's wrong with your hands. I just still remember what they aren't. Some nights I mistake exhaustion for distance Some days a look is enough to pull me under You carry your own ghosts behind your eyes I know because I've seen them surface in mine We don't need another wound between us We don't need to turn silence into proof Still, something freezes when the room gets quiet And neither one of us knows how to move I can feel you trying to reach me I can feel myself preparing to run There is no enemy inside this room Just two people bracing for one Cold. I know you love me I just can't always let it reach me Old memories keep speaking in your voice Till I forget whose pain I'm listening to You give me warmth I keep searching for the temperature Something beautiful is standing here And I'm still waiting for it to feel safe Maybe the cold was never yours. Maybe I brought it with me. I know you're here. I'm still cold. I've been fighting ghosts, you never put there Building walls, you never asked for I keep calling it distance When it's fear wearing your face I keep calling you cold When I'm the one pulling away (Breathe.) Don't make me pay For what they did to me Don't make you bleed For what they did to you If we're still standing Then let the walls come down I don't want to feel nothing Just because feeling hurt once. Stay. I know you love me And now I'm learning how to feel it The past can speak without becoming the truth I don't have to make your silence mean goodbye You give me warmth I'm finally staying close enough to feel it Nothing between us needs to disappear We just have to stop carrying it alone I know you love me I'm still learning how to believe it
