[Intro] [Restrained Ambient Heartbeat Pulse — Constant, Low, Unchanging] [Sparse Acoustic Guitar, Distant] [Verse 1] [Flat, Matter-of-Fact Delivery — No Performance, Just Fact] I wasn't speeding, not really, not on purpose Just PCH and the window down Thank god I didn't push you out though somewhere back there I already had Not with my hands — with the door I built instead [Pre-Chorus] [Composed Surface, Coiled Underneath — Slight Crack on Peak Words] I imprisoned my own heart where none can ever open Swallowed every key I own call it survival, call it — coping [Chorus] [Vowel-Forward, Held Notes on "wholeheartedly" and "lost"] [Pulse Steady, Unbroken Beneath] Nobody taught you to love only a little 'cause wholeheartedly means you lost you too Nobody taught me the cost of the middle so I gave it all — and I lost me too [Verse 2] [Same Restraint as Verse 1 — Longer, Wearier] Years of asking with my mouth shut tight longing dressed up like it's fine The jacket isn't armor anymore it's just what keeps me human at night [Pre-Chorus 2] [Same as Pre-Chorus, Slightly Rawer] I imprisoned my own heart where none can ever open Swallowed every key I own call it survival, call it — coping [Chorus 2] [Same as Chorus 1 — Fuller Production, Still Controlled] [Bridge] [Three-Layer Vocals: Low Chant / High Break / Middle Sob-Spoken Diary] [Pulse Unbroken Beneath All Three] [low, chant-like, almost spoken] it's betrayal... it's betrayal... it's betrayal... [high, cracking, near scream] IT'S BETRAYAL— IT'S BETRAYAL— [middle, sobbing through words, barely composed] "Dear diary... why did you make me– (catch) desperate enough from my previous relationship that I ran– (breath breaks) into the lion's den— willingly— willingly— willingly—" [long inhale, audible, shaking breath] "...willingly..." [voice gives out completely, no air left] [low + high converge, rising] it's disbelief... it's LIESSSZZZZ— [Beat of Silence — Pulse Only] [Final Chorus] [Same Words as Chorus 1 — Now Devastated, Not Realized] [Vocal Worn, Quieter Than Before, No Bombast] Nobody taught you to love only a little 'cause wholeheartedly means you lost you too Nobody taught me the cost of the middle so I gave it all — and I lost me too [Outro] [Fade — Pulse Continues Alone After Vocal Stops] willing... [End]
