[Verse 1] I line my books from dark to light I sleep on sheets that fold just right You said my room felt like a shrine I said, “It’s just how I survive” [Pre-Chorus] You leave your shoes across the floor Like you’re begging me to love your chaos more I fix the mess and hold my breath But your perfume’s loud like a threat [Chorus] Clean hands, dirty mind I dress my guilt in ties and wine You touch me like I won’t come undone But I’m stitched too tight to feel the sun I’m clean …just not the way you mean [Verse 2] I count the spaces in your laugh Like every note’s a perfect trap You move like jazz, I move like time You kiss off-beat, I fall in line [Pre-Chorus 2] You say I’m safe, you say I’m still But I’m a storm behind the windowsill I’d burn for love but I don’t ignite Just flicker underneath the light [Chorus – repeat] Clean hands, dirty mind I dress my guilt in ties and wine You touch me like I won’t come undone But I’m stitched too tight to feel the sun I’m clean …just not the way you mean [Bridge – whispery tone] I won’t let you see my rituals I smile like it’s spiritual But every step I take in love Is balanced on a matchstick trust [Outro – with quiet breath, soft Japanese line] Your chaos smells like something I forgot ...but wanted あれは ただの 自由 じゃなかったね (That wasn’t just freedom... was it?)
