SELF PORTRAIT [Verse 1] I woke up in a borrowed room, wearing yesterday’s skin. Sunlight through the dirty blinds like God was checking in. There’s a mirror in the corner with a mouth it doesn’t use. It only shows the evidence— it never tells the truth. I had a body built for running. I had hands that knew to flinch. But I walked straight to the burning like the fire owed me warmth again. [Pre-Chorus] Every animal knows when to leave. Every child knows pain means no. But I made a saint of the thing that hurt me, and called it home. [Chorus] A self portrait hanging upside down, long black hair on porcelain. Welcome to the gallery— where a thousand shades of hurt won’t let you look at me. Patience wearing paper-thin, black hole eyes you could drown in. Every masterpiece needs a tragedy… She buried herself just to survive. [Verse 2] I learned to pray in bathrooms with my forehead on the sink. Built a cathedral out of silence, made a halo out of need. Wasn’t it so human to want the hurting gone? So why’d I keep reaching for the hand that pulled me under? My bloodstream wrote me letters in a language made of teeth. Said, “This is how you stay alive.” It lied so tenderly. I set my house on fire just to keep the winter out. Funny what survival looks like when survival turns around. [Bridge] And now my shadow haunts me— a hollow, pale-faced ghost. She wears every version I loved a little too close. God, I wish I’d met her sooner, before the hunger learned her name. Before instinct became a stranger. Before mercy looked like flames. Dark eyes. Two black skies. Somewhere underneath the ashes there’s still a girl with both alive. [Final Chorus] A self portrait hanging upside down, long black hair on porcelain. Welcome to the gallery— where a thousand shades of hurt won’t let you look at me. Patience wearing paper-thin, black hole eyes you could drown in. Every masterpiece needs a tragedy… She buried herself just to survive. [Outro] If you stand here long enough, you’ll swear the painting breathes. Look a little closer— she wasn’t trying to die. She was trying to survive.
