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Playing Dumb Waiting

[Verse 1] Out on the street Getting high like always then Me and this girl Walked clear across town House had been condemned Black mold in the walls Nobody supposed to live there So naturally It was full of us People sleeping wherever Getting high Coming and going Then a tar dealer Walked through the door Little girl beside her And I knew that little girl That was my daughter [Verse 2] Didn't say a fucking word Didn't let it hit my face Just asked her Why you got a kid with you? She tells me She went down to the park To sell some tar Girl she sold it to Nodded out So she took her kid Said she wasn't Giving her back Said she couldn't have children Always wanted one I'm standing there listening Looking at my child Pretending I've never seen her before [Chorus] She didn't know That was my daughter Didn't know I already knew her face Didn't know The man she told the story to Was her father Standing in that place And my little girl Couldn't tell her Too young To say my name So I sat there Playing with my daughter Waiting for something I could change [Verse 3] Spent the day beside her Playing on the floor She kept coming back to me Dealer thought It was funny Look at that She really likes you Yeah Funny how that works Couldn't tell my daughter What was happening Couldn't tell that woman Who I was Couldn't grab her And walk away Had nowhere To take her I was sleeping In the riverbed She was safe Long as I could see her Nobody taking her Behind a door So I stayed there Playing dumb Waiting [Verse 4] Then the dealer Grabbed her things Said she had A drop to make Looked at me Like nothing strange Was happening at all Can you watch her Till I get back? Yeah I can do that Door shut behind her Didn't waste a second Got ahold of her mom Told her where we were Come on here's our chance Now [Chorus] She didn't know That was my daughter Didn't know Who she'd left her with Didn't know She'd handed that little girl Back to her own dad again And my little girl Couldn't tell her Too young To explain So I sat there Playing with my daughter Till I finally Got my chance [Verse 5] Her mom came And swooped her up Then the room Was quiet again Black mold in the walls Addicts scattered through the house And me Still standing there I couldn't take her home Didn't have one Couldn't say She's staying with me I lived in a hole in the ground So I did What I could do Got her somewhere safer Then went back To being misunderstood [Bridge] That's the part That stays with me Not that I saved the day Not some hero Not some father Coming to carry her away I was getting high too I was sleeping In the dirt For a couple hours In that condemned house I was simply What worked [Final Chorus] She didn't know That was my daughter Maybe that's What saved us then She told the whole damn story To the one person Who already knew that kid My daughter Couldn't say it I couldn't take her home But when that door Closed behind that woman I knew exactly Who to call no other options in the middle of my fall [Outro] Couldn't give my daughter A home that day But I could get her Out Taken away A week later CPS got wind Of the behavior I got clean And changed forever Built a home And kept her there Until she grew relaps still showed I did the best I could