[Intro] [male baritone vocals, no instruments] (breathing, distant room tone) I’ve been losing my mind here… [Verse 1] [male baritone vocals, sparse atmospheric texture enters] I’ve been losing my mind here Searching for the words to say You keep preaching hollow mercy While your silence gives me away I try to breathe through the pressure But the air won’t fill my chest Every promise sounds like thunder Every memory needs a rest [Pre-Chorus] [low harmony builds underneath] I wish I were whole again Not a shadow wearing skin You left me on this shoreline With a map that never led me in [Chorus] [full baritone vocal, dark and heavy] I want to lose myself in dignity Wash away this fractured identity I’m falling faster through the wreckage now Trying to remember how to breathe somehow You wanted me to drown beneath the weight Tear apart the mind you helped create Leave the ruins far behind somehow I’m a monument to every lie I found [Verse 2] [drums and low strings enter softly] I had futures drawn in silver I had names I could have worn But they faded into ashes Long before the morning storm My heart was stitched together From the deepest kind of thread And you pulled at every fiber Till the strongest parts were dead [Pre-Chorus] [intensity rises] Now every thought collides with another Every truth is hard to hold I read the lines inside my head Like a story already told [Chorus] [bigger vocal, layered harmonies] I want to lose myself in dignity Wash away this fractured identity I’m falling faster through the wreckage now Trying to remember how to breathe somehow You wanted me to drown beneath the weight Tear apart the mind you helped create Leave the ruins far behind somehow I’m a monument to every lie I found [Bridge] [instruments drop out except low drone and heartbeat percussion] I’ve been losing my mind here All the things you said to me Echo through these empty lungs Like they never wanted me free Maybe I was never broken Maybe I was just unseen A half-finished apparition Trapped between what was and what has been [Final Chorus] [full instrumentation, emotional peak] I want to lose myself in dignity Not disappear into your cruelty I’m climbing out from underneath the flood Though my hands are still covered in the mud You tried to make me drown beneath the weight But I survived the mind you helped create I’ll leave the ruins far behind somehow No longer living in the lie I found [Outro] [male baritone vocals, instruments fade away] I’ve been losing my mind here… But I’m still breathing now.
