Brain Full of Tabs

]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[ [BOOT SEQUENCE] Okay— I woke up tired from thinking yesterday and yesterday is still running [POP-UP #1] Did I reply to that text or just imagine replying with confidence (with confidence) ]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[ [POP-UP #2] Why am I anxious I’m literally sitting down [MAIN BODY] My-my-my-my head looks like twenty-seven ideas arguing in pajamas One tab is crying One tab is shopping One tab googled “is it normal to feel like this” ]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[ None of them load All of them scream [CHECKLIST I NEVER FINISH] drink-drink water change-change my life stop-stop overthinking remember what I came here for I open another thought to help with the first thought Now they’re flirting and I hate it [INNER MONOLOGUE] I’m calm I’m calm! Why is my heart jogging ]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[ I plan my future while brushing my teeth and forget my own name in the mirror ]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[ [SIDE QUEST] I think about you then immediately think about why I think about you thinking then think then think about thinking about thinking This is exhausting and I haven’t moved ]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[ [ERROR MESSAGE] Too many thoughts open none loading please close something I try I close one three more appear like “hey bestie” ]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[ [CONFESSION, SORT OF] I laugh at my problems because if I don’t they’ll start charging rent I tell everyone I’m fine which is true in a very flexible way ]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[ [THOUGHT DUMP] Did I sound weird Was that joke funny Why did I say that What if I never stop like this What if this is just me But louder ]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[ [TEMPORARY ACCEPTANCE] Maybe my mind’s just a crowded room and I’m the girl trying to host Offering snacks to every thought hoping one of them goes home ]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[ [FINAL LOOP] Brain full of tabs Too many thoughts open None loading ]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[ I’d close them all… if I knew which one was me ]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[]|[=-=]|[