Used to set myself on fire Just to warm your hands a little Every “thank you” felt recycled Paper thin and half asleep You lean on me when you’re heavy Then laugh lighter when I fade Smile wide in the bright room Act like you forgot my name How many times did I swallow the hurt Say “it’s fine” while it clawed at my nerves Every favor Every late night ride You took and you took and you took I’m so tired of feeling hollow afterglow Giving everything You never even know You just drink me down Leave the empty soul It’s eating me whole Even you My last safe harbor Check my pulse like I’m a chore Kiss me Then you grab your phone Scroll right through my silent war I cook I clean I listen You say “sorry Long day” I bleed out in the bathroom mirror You’re still talking about your pain How many times did I swallow the scream Bite my tongue till it tasted like steel Hold you up while I’m sinking slow You never once asked “Are you drowning?” I’m so tired of feeling hollow afterglow Giving everything You never even know You just drink me down Leave the empty soul It’s eating me whole [whispered vocals] I am not a bottomless well I am not your quiet shell I am bones and breath and breaking Heart so tense it keeps on shaking You call it love when my hands hold your weight But where are you when my ribs vibrate From the pressure From the ache From the load you throw I can’t carry you alone