Still Here Watching

The itsy bitsy spider climbed up again I watched it from the side trying not to think Something keeps on pulling something keeps on trying even when the whole thing washes out It just starts over doesn't matter what came before it just starts over I don't know if that's brave or if it's just all it knows I've been doing that too, I think same climb same pull can't figure out if I'm getting somewhere or just repeating It just starts over doesn't matter what came before it just starts over I don't know if that's brave or if it's just all it knows Maybe there's nothing waiting at the top maybe that's not the point maybe the spider doesn't ask why I'm not sure I'm okay with that I'm not sure I'm okay I'm not sure I'm The itsy bitsy spider climbed up again I keep watching it now something in the way it moves makes my stomach turn a little makes me wonder if I move the same makes me wonder if I ever moved It just starts over doesn't matter what came before it just starts over I don't know if that's brave or if it's just all it knows What if I stop looking would it still climb what if it knows I'm watching what if I'm the one who keeps washing it down Itsy bitsy spider climbed back up again itsy bitsy spider climbed back up again itsy bitsy spider… climbed back up again and I'm still here watching still here watching still here I think I'm still here