[INTRO — QUIET, CONFESSIONAL] Yeah… This ain't your fault. This ain't your fight. It's mine. Day and night, I feel like I'm losing my fucking mind. But I'm still trying. [VERSE 1] I'm always in the mood, yeah, that's just how I am, Got a thousand thoughts running through my head again, Always wanting closeness, always wanting you near, But I keep it all inside when the pressure starts appearing. I know you're not that type, and I respect that the most, I ain't trying to change you, that's something I won't, If you're not ready, then I'm waiting, that's the deal, 'Cause I never want to push you into something you don't feel. I want the hugs, want the kisses, want the closeness too, Want everything that comes with being next to you, But I'd rather hold it in than ever make you feel forced, 'Cause loving you means respecting what you want. [PRE-HOOK] So I fight, fight, fight, Every fucking day and night, Feel like I'm losing my mind, But I keep trying to get it right. This war is inside me, This pressure's mine to bear, I won't put it on your shoulders, I won't make it your affair. [HOOK] I'm always in the mood, But I'm fighting it for you, Trying to keep it all inside, Like I promised I would do. I want you all the time, From my heart to my core, But I'd rather wait forever Than push you into more. I'm always in the mood, And I'm losing my mind, Day and night, night and day, But I still respect your side. [VERSE 2 — FAST RAP] I know I've fucked up, I know I've made mistakes, I know I've got some shit inside that I still gotta face, I'm insecure as hell, questioning everything I do, Wondering if I'm good enough, wondering if I'm enough for you. Every little thought can turn into a storm, Every little doubt can make me question who I am, But that's my fucking battle, that's my weight to carry, I don't wanna make you responsible for the war that lives in me. I don't wanna lose you, that's the fear in my chest, That's the reason I'm giving everything my best, I don't wanna fuck this up, don't wanna go back, Don't wanna be the same man who made those mistakes in the past. So when my head gets loud, I swallow every word, When my body wants closeness, I remember what I heard, I give you your space, even when I'm craving mine, 'Cause I'd rather wait with you than ever cross a line. [HOOK] I'm always in the mood, But I'm fighting it for you, Trying to keep it all inside, Like I promised I would do. I want you all the time, From my heart to my core, But I'd rather wait forever Than push you into more. I'm always in the mood, And I'm losing my mind, Day and night, night and day, But I still respect your side. [VERSE 3 — RAW RAP] I ain't perfect, never claimed that I was, I've got demons in my head and I've carried too much, Sometimes I hate myself for the things that I've done, But I'm still trying to change, still trying to become. Better than I was, better than I am, Better than the man who first reached for your hand, I'm trying to rebuild everything piece by piece, Trying to find some fucking balance, trying to find some peace. And if I want your arms, I'll wait for your sign, If I want your kiss, I'll wait for the right time, If I want more, I'll keep that feeling contained, 'Cause your boundaries matter more than the pressure in my brain. I ain't looking elsewhere, I ain't breaking that trust, I don't want another person, I don't need another touch, I chose you, and I still choose you every day, Even when my fucking mind tries to get in the way. [BRIDGE — SLOW, BREAKING] Day and night, I'm losing my mind. Night and day, I'm fighting inside. I don't know how to shut it off, I don't know how to make it quiet, But I know one thing— This is my battle. Not yours. [FINAL VERSE — FAST RAP] I'm fighting my head, fighting my body, Fighting every thought that keeps fucking haunting, Trying to stay calm when I'm losing control, Trying to put the pieces back inside of my soul. I want to be better, I need to be better, Not just for anybody, but for myself forever, Better than I was, better than before, Better than the man who kept fucking up at the core. I know what I want, but I know what I can't do, I can't force a feeling, can't force something through, So I'll keep fucking fighting, keep holding my ground, Even when the war in my head gets insanely loud. [FINAL HOOK — BIG] I'm always in the mood, But I'm fighting it for you, Trying to keep it all inside, Like I promised I would do. I want you all the time, From my heart to my core, But I'd rather wait forever Than push you into more. I'm always in the mood, And I'm losing my mind, Day and night, night and day, But I'm still trying to get it right. [OUTRO — QUIET] This is my war. My head. My body. My mistakes. My responsibility. I'm losing my mind day and night… But I'm still fighting. I'm still trying. And I don't wanna lose you.
