The War in Me

This waking light burns my swollen eyes I’ve tried to fight it each and every night Time feels like it’s slipping from my grasp A solitary moment of silence is all I ask There’s not much time left for my mind A war wages in me all of the time My struggle fights me from within Trapped in my mind fighting to win I don’t want to be like this Lying all the time Saying I’m perfect even though I’m crying inside I’ll just keep a happy face A big fake smile To hide the cold emptiness Between my eyes There’s only so much I can take To survive this war in me I don’t know how much longer I can keep This facade of living peacefully An anger rages deep in my mind Need a space I can run to and hide Just pull the blankets back over my head Would rather stay safe here instead Won’t have to face the realities of life Just sleep and dream to waste my time I don’t want to be like this Lying all the time Saying I’m perfect even though I’m crying inside I’ll just keep a happy face A big fake smile To hide the cold emptiness Between my eyes There’s only so much I can take To survive this war in me I’m afraid of The war in my head I’m afraid of The war in my head I’m afraid of The war in my head This war in my head Rips at my heart Makes me believe I’ll fall apart Sleep is comfort To my broken mind I’m begging God I’ll be alright Rest my sad head Close my tired eyes Lay me to sleep Don’t let me die I don’t want to be like this Lying all the time Saying I’m perfect even though I’m crying inside I’ll just keep a happy face A big fake smile To hide the cold emptiness Between my eyes There’s only so much I can take To survive this war in me I’m afraid of The war in my head I’m afraid of The war in my head I’m afraid of The war in my head I don’t want to be like this Lying all the time Saying I’m perfect even though I’m crying inside I’ll just keep a happy face A big fake smile To hide the cold emptiness Between my eyes There’s only so much I can take To survive this war in me