I don’t wanna kiss you, But I do. I don’t wanna think about you, But I do. Try to act normal. Cute little lie. Whole nervous system Won’t let it slide. I can’t rest. I can’t eat. My kitty’s in heat. I got a whole life. Whole world to spin. But every thought of you Crosses the line again. Mind’s a beautiful thing. Curiosity and chaos. Dig it all down deep. Still somehow you haunt it. That wink. That stare. Whole room disappears. Wait… What was I saying again? Some things lost. Some things found. Some things buried underground. I can barely hear your voice now Through the static in my head. But baby, Those memories ain’t dead. You know what’ll drive me to the grave? Still seeing your sweet face. That little twinkle in your eye Right before you look away. I forgot to blink. And there goes my sanity again. Beautiful chaos. Beautiful chaos. You ruin my balance All over again. I swear I’m fine Until your name pops up. Then suddenly My chest gets loud as fuck. One little memory. One tiny spark. And my brain turns your shadow Into modern art. I replay details Like it’s cinema. The way your smile hit Felt criminal. I got things to do. People to call back. Instead I’m romanticizing eye contact. Don’t flatter yourself. I’m still functioning. Barely sleeping, But functioning. Trying real hard To stay mysterious. While internally This is getting ridiculous. You know what’ll drive me insane? Missing things I can’t explain. That smile. That stare. That dangerous kind of care. One look from you And my whole world spins. I forgot to breathe. And there goes the chaos again. Beautiful chaos. Beautiful chaos. Every time I heal You sneak back in.
