To Find My Mind

[Verse 1] I packed my bag too fast Like I could outrun the ache Your name still on my mouth Like a promise I can’t break I’m standing in the doorway With the weight of all I’ve been I love you, and I’m scared Of the person I’m becoming [Pre-Chorus] So don’t ask me to stay When my heart won’t sit still I’m not leaving you behind I’m just trying to feel Who I am in the dark What I want in the light If I hold onto us I might lose my own life [Chorus] I don’t want goodbye I don’t want goodbye But I need the road To find my mind I don’t want goodbye I don’t want goodbye If I come back changed Please still let me try [Verse 2] We learned each other’s shadows We learned the shape of home But there’s a door inside me That won’t stay closed for long I need the scar, the distance I need the empty space To hear my own voice clearly Without your hand in place [Pre-Chorus] So don’t ask me to stay When my heart won’t sit still I’m not leaving you behind I’m just trying to feel Who I am in the dark What I want in the light If I hold onto us I might lose my own life [Chorus] I don’t want goodbye I don’t want goodbye But I need the road To find my mind I don’t want goodbye I don’t want goodbye If I come back changed Please still let me try [Bridge] Maybe love can be A door left cracked Maybe what we were Can still come back I’m not saying forever I’m saying not yet I need to meet myself Before I can fully give [Final Chorus] I don’t want goodbye I don’t want goodbye But I need the road To find my mind I don’t want goodbye I don’t want goodbye If I come back changed Please still let me try I don’t want goodbye I don’t want goodbye And if you still love me Let me go this time