Heart numb.. Mind dumb.. Eyes tired.. Feet on fire.. Waiting to just breathe.. Don't hold me.. Keep just letting go.. I only ever wanted to just know.. -- What lived beneath the silence.. What hid behind your teeth.. Why "nothing" always sounded like something underneath.. Why I could feel the distance while you were next to me.. Why every time I reached for you, you loosened your grip on me.. -- Heart numb.. Mind dumb.. Still awake when morning comes.. Feet burning from the miles I walked just trying not to run.. Don't hold me if you're letting go.. Don't tell me there's nothing when there's something we both know.. I don't need the perfect words.. I don't need another show.. I only ever wanted to just know.. -- "What's wrong?" "Nothing." ...Oh. Something. There's always something hiding in the pause.. Something in the way we stopped talking like we were us.. Can we speak? Can we bleed the truth without deciding who's to blame? Can you tell me what you feel without making me guess your pain? Because I've spent too many nights interrogating my own name.. Asking what I did to make your love begin to change.. -- Maybe that's what hurts the most.. Not losing what I held.. But standing at a door half-open never knowing where you went.. You don't have to choose me. You don't have to stay. But please don't make me build a truth from everything you wouldn't say.. -- Heart numb.. Mind dumb.. Eyes tired.. Feet on fire.. Still waiting to just breathe.. And maybe breathing means I finally stop chasing what won't speak.. So don't hold me.. Don't pretend to let me close.. If you're leaving— let me know. Because through everything I begged the night to show.. I never needed every answer. I only ever wanted to know.
