Can't Say Your Name

it's like I buried a seed No water no need But it still crawls up wraps around my brain It’s been so long since you lived here inside me It’s kind of funny really I know I know you don’t get a say in this game But when I think of you I feel full just the same While for you the thought of me is all pain I just can’t say your name It’s caught in my throat like a spark in the rain I just can’t say I just can’t say your name I wish I could be what I am now back then But time doesn’t bend and this story won’t mend I just wanna be next to you again But I know it’s unfair to pretend One spark in the haze still lights the dark But clouds below show where it all falls apart Forget I said it it’s just my mind again I just can’t say your name It’s caught in my throat like a spark in the rain I just can’t say I just can’t say your name What does it take to leave this behind To choke the seed that’s strangling my mind Your name’s on my tongue on my heart, torn apart Buried deep with the sorrow of your depart Sheets soaked in the weight of infatuation Half a year gone half rotted in isolation But I still hold you here When the clarity cuts too near I just can’t say your name It burns in my soul like a moth to a flame I just can’t say I just can’t say your name