“Talking To You” ______ (Verse 1) You always show up when the room gets quiet Right when I finally feel alright again You sit beside me and start talking Filling my head with all your questions ______ “Did they mean that?” “Why’d they say it like that?” “Why you always gotta mess things up?” And I try not to listen But you never stop long enough ______ You know exactly where it hurts Exactly which memories still burn You pull them out like old photographs Then make me live inside them again ______ (Chorus) And I hate talking to you Every night turns into two One side trying to survive One side keeping me up all night ______ You make friendships feel dangerous Make love feel temporary You take every good thing I touch And fill it up with anxiety ______ I should’ve left you years ago But somehow you always follow Everywhere I run There you are ______ (Verse 2) You tell me nobody really knows me That if they did they’d leave eventually So I keep people at arm’s length Before they get the chance to hurt me ______ And you laugh when I get attached Like “look how fast you’re falling back” One bad day and suddenly I’m convinced everybody’s mad at me ______ You turn silence into tension Late replies into rejection And somehow by the end of the night I believe every lie you said ______ (Pre-Chorus) I swear sometimes you sound like me Same voice, same insecurity Like you were made from every fear I’ve carried through the years ______ (Chorus) And I hate talking to you Every night turns into two One side trying to survive One side keeping me up all night ______ You make friendships feel dangerous Make love feel temporary You take every good thing I touch And fill it up with anxiety ______ I should’ve left you years ago But somehow you always follow Everywhere I run There you are ______ (Bridge — realization starts) Wait… ______ How come nobody sees you with me? How come these conversations only happen in my head? How come every word you say Sounds like something I would say to myself instead? ______ Maybe you were never somebody else ______ Maybe… ______ You were the noise The overthinking The chaos I can’t shut off The reason I feel too much all at once ______ (Final Chorus) And all this time I called you “you” Like you were somebody I could lose But you were every restless thought My ADHD ever caused ______ Every spiral Every doubt Every time I shut people out Every moment I felt too hard to love Was you talking through me ______ So if I seem distant sometimes If I disappear inside my mind It’s because I’ve spent my whole life Arguing with the voice inside ______ (Outro) And the worst part is… Tomorrow night You’ll talk to me again
