I don’t even know what I’m feeling anymore

After That incident of Tech support Aggressively trying to ask. who the person that was sitting next to me. Their name About five minutes later, A Kaiser number pops up. And now I'm too scared to even answer. And It was HR Connect. Trying to reach out to me. To fix The problem With my overpayment. I feel like I'm breaking down. I just want to cry. Every time I see Kaiser anything. Kaiser anything I don't know if I'm angry, sad I don't even know what point I'm at. And then my therapist... For Sedgwick, for my worker's comp. Tried to turn on me, And tell me not tell me but ask me why I haven’t left my house and I said how am I supposed to leave my house with very little money so I have to be as frugal as possible and you know the most important thing is being a mother right now and keeping a roof over her head and he goes how come you’re just talking about money you’re you’re not scared of the guy who put the camera. I said absolutely but you asked me why I haven’t left my house you didn’t ask me why I don’t wanna go back to Kaiser. I don’t wanna go back to Kaiser because I don’t know how I will be. I don’t know if I’ll have a panic attack or if I’ll go rage I don’t even know what I’m feeling right at this momentbecause everything is happening. I missed my kids entire summer. This incident happened a week after my kid got out of school and now here we are. She’s already been back to school for two weeks. My entire summer got wasted because of this motherfucker who put a camera in our bathroom and now the backlash that I am getting from Kaiser itself telling me to go back to work when are you coming back to work? I don’t ever wanna go back to work. I want early medical retirement. I want a compensation. I want lifetime medical full coverage for me and my daughter stop messing with me.