# WORDS I COULDN'T SAY **[Intro]** Yeah... There's a lot of things I should've said. A lot of things I felt... But every time I tried to speak, I couldn't find the words. **[Verse 1]** I should've told you that I loved you when I had the chance, Should've told you I was scared instead of acting like a man, Should've told you when I needed you instead of pushing back, Should've told you that the distance wasn't something that I wanted. I should've said I'm sorry for the nights I made you cry, For the arguments that turned into another sleepless night, For the words I threw in anger that I never really meant, For pretending I was fine when I was barely making sense. I should've said I wasn't angry, I was hurting underneath, I was scared that if I showed it, you would see too much of me, So I built another wall every time you got too close, Then complained about the distance like I wasn't what had caused it. That's the part that I regret. I was fighting battles silently, Expecting you to read my mind and somehow understand the violence in me, Not violence with my hands, but the war inside my head, All the things I couldn't verbalize became the things I never said. **[Pre-Hook]** Now the words are on my tongue, But the moment's gone away. Funny how the heart gets honest When there's nothing left to say. **[Hook]** These are the words I couldn't say, All the feelings that I threw away, All the "I love yous" trapped inside, All the times I should've swallowed pride. These are the words I couldn't say, All the apologies too late, If I could go back, I'd tell the truth, I was scared of losing me while I was scared of losing you. These are the words... The words I couldn't say. **[Verse 2]** I should've told my younger self that he was doing okay, That the things he couldn't change wouldn't define him someday, Should've told him that the pain wasn't proof he was weak, And the tears he tried to hide didn't make him less of a man. I should've said "slow down" when I started chasing everything, Should've said "you don't need approval just to know that you can dream," Should've told myself success isn't measured by applause, And you can win every battle while still losing who you are. I should've told the people that I loved how much they mattered, Instead of assuming they could somehow see behind the armor, 'Cause tomorrow isn't promised and forever isn't guaranteed, And silence ain't protection when somebody needs to hear you speak. So here's the truth: I was scared. Scared of being vulnerable, embarrassed by the damage, Scared that if I showed my heart, somebody else would understand it, Scared that if I gave somebody everything I had inside, They'd discover all the broken parts and leave me with the pieces twice. So I learned to make a joke when something hurt me, Change the subject when somebody asked me if I was hurting, Say "I'm good" when I wasn't, say "don't worry" when I worried, Then wonder why nobody knew the person underneath the surface. **[Pre-Hook]** Now the words are on my tongue, But the moment's gone away. Funny how the heart gets honest When there's nothing left to say. **[Hook]** These are the words I couldn't say, All the feelings that I threw away, All the "I love yous" trapped inside, All the times I should've swallowed pride. These are the words I couldn't say, All the apologies too late, If I could go back, I'd tell the truth, I was scared of losing me while I was scared of losing you. These are the words... The words I couldn't say. **[Verse 3]** Now I'm putting every hidden sentence into syllables, Every little secret that I buried getting visible, Turning all the difficult emotions into digital Evidence that even broken hearts can still be lyrical. I made a language out of pain because I couldn't speak it, Made a canvas out of scars because I couldn't leave it, Made a habit out of hiding every weakness I was feeling, Then confused my own avoidance for emotional healing. That's deep. 'Cause sometimes you're not heartless, you're just guarded, Not incapable of love, you're just afraid of being discarded, Not detached, just distracted by the damage in your past, Not incapable of trust, just afraid that it won't last. And I know I've hurt people while I was hurting too, That's not an excuse, that's just something I gotta own and tell the truth, I can't change what I said, can't erase what I did, Can't rewind every moment just because I finally get it. But I can speak now. I can say what I mean. I can tell somebody "I love you" without hiding behind pride, I can say "I'm fucking scared" without feeling like I've died, I can apologize without expecting everything repaired, I can finally let somebody know that I genuinely care. Maybe that's what growing is. Not becoming somebody without flaws... Just becoming somebody honest enough To admit when they have them. **[Bridge]** If you're listening... And there's something you've been meaning to say... Say
