Stardust, Eventually (final IM)

Half seven, hallway light on, she calls me back from the top of the stairs — Dad, are you going to die? Just like that. Like asking about the weather. And I said yes. But not for a long time. And I stood there holding the door (mm) Didn't move for a bit Something in me tightened We all know we have to go, sometime — don't know when Buried parents and some friends by then (mm) It isn't the dark part, I don't think It's not being in the room It's the school run, the birthdays I've counted forward — she'll be seventeen, and I do the maths, and I do the maths again Mostly I'm afraid of my own fear That she'll pick it up off me, the way she picked up the way I laugh We all know we have to go, sometime — don't know when Buried parents and some friends by then (I know) (go on) Then I think about the time I'll live The calls I keep meaning to make My dad in his chair with the football on low Your hand, the kids, the mates I've still got All the people I've met by accident All the luck I've had and never counted (that's it) Might be the idea of nothing Going without leaving a mark All the things I haven't done All the things I can't replace No one left who remembers the sound of your voice (mm) That's the one. That's the one that gets me. We are stardust, all of us Held together for a while Turning into something else Leaving the hopes and the fears behind That's what I told her. Word for word. We all know we have to go, sometime — don't know when (mm) Just don't want to be in pain No, I don't want to be in pain Want to feel your hand in mine And hers in the other one (mm) And if I go before you Or you go before me I hope the love we carried Is the last thing that we see (that's it) And if she asks me again, I'll tell her the same thing — We're made of stars, love We go back, eventually