[Intro: softly] Smoking cigarettes in the darkness [Violin break] Lately, I been living like a hot mess [Violin break] I been lost in my head and I'm coming undone [Break] Every moment feels like I'm under... the gun... [Interlude] (...) (Rah!!!) [Verse 1] I felt it in the spaces where you used to reach for me Something in the in-between had started pulling free The love was still arriving but it landed differently And something in the seeing had stopped seeing only me [Pre-Chorus] And I didn't want this I really really didn't fucking want this Got me feeling so fucking nauseous My conscience Is telling me I'm monstrous But I can't stop from screaming, "please not this!" [Chorus] And yoou... You got what you've been waaaiting fooor... And yooou... You left me here and walked right out the door... And me... (...) I'm lost without you (Lost without you) Lost without you (Lost without you) Lost without you! (...) [Verse 2] And now I'm Bleeding bleeding bleeding out All my thoughts are Feeding doubt I'm trying to keep from Freaking out But I just see you Leaving now Oh! I keep returning to the moments when your eyes were just for me When every room we walked into you'd find me instantly When everything between us moved so naturally and free And something in me wonders if you even see what I see [Pre-Chorus] And I didn't want this I really really didn't fucking want this Got me feeling so fucking nauseous My conscience Is telling me I'm monstrous But I can't stop from screaming, "please not this!" [Chorus] And yoou... You got what you've been waaaiting fooor... And yooou... You left me here and walked right out the door... And me... (...) I'm lost without you (Lost without you) Lost without you (Lost without you) Lost without you! [Bridge] I never signed up for the wanting never asked to be this far in Never thought a feeling could dismantle everything I started Never knew that needing you would hollow out the hardest part and Swallow me completely while I'm screaming that I didn't want it Every conversation replaying Got me lost and suffocating Every almost every maybe Got me spiraling and fading Every wall I built is degrading And I feel myself cascading Into everything I been evading And yet I find myself still waiting [Beat Callback] And now I'm Watching watching watching you All my love is Coming through But you're somewhere I can't get to And I just feel you Fading too [Break] "Please not this!" "Anything but this!" [Guitar Solo] (...) [Chorus] And yoou... You got what you've been waaaiting fooor... And yooou... You left me here and walked right out the doooor... And me... (...) I'm lost without you (Lost without you) Lost without you (Lost without you) Lost without you! [Breakdown] (...) [Outro] Smoking cigarettes in the darkness (Please not this!) Lately, I been living like a hot mess (Please not this!) And I'm coming undone Like I'm under... The gun The gun! [End]
