Don't Tell Me We're Fine

You pause before replying, then insist that you're okay You turn your screen face down each time I look away You pull your body inward when I reach across the sheets Then blame me for finding trouble in the way you fall asleep You say I'm reading into things Then dodge the point each question brings Every answer sounds rehearsed Then the details get reversed Don't tell me we're fine Then ration out your time If you're already gone Quit making me play along Don't tell me we're fine Then say it's all in my mind You keep telling me I'm wrong Like I haven't known all along You moved our Friday dinner, said the office held you late You checked the clock twice after that, like somebody might wait You stepped into the hallway for a call you labeled work You came back looking tired, which only made it worse You make me sound paranoid Then change the subject to avoid You act like distance doesn't show Then ask me why I need to know Don't tell me we're fine Then ration out your time If you're already gone Quit making me play along Don't tell me we're fine Then say it's all in my mind You keep telling me I'm wrong Like I haven't known all along I don't need you to admit it, I can feel what this became I got tired of feeling stupid every time you stayed the same Whatever you still feel for me, I don't need it anymore You aren't the only one who's done, I stopped caring long before Don't tell me we're fine I've already made up my mind If you're already gone I won't be here to play along You reach for me, I pull away You ask what changed in me today You swear you've done nothing wrong I take that as proof and move along I kept waiting for the moment you'd finally make it clear Every ordinary answer somehow fed the fear You stayed exactly as you were, patient through the strain I called that indifference and blamed you once again