The Weight I Carry

### [Verse 1 — male] Head full of pressure, chest full of dread Every promise echoing loud in my head Tryna talk peace while I’m pacing instead Tryna plant gardens with a storm overhead -- And the more that I push, the more it gets blurred Whole heart in the room but it dies in the words Then I sit in the silence disturbed and absurd Like “How can devotion feel this unheard?” Marcus said death smiles at all of us living Christ said forgive ‘em, they know not what’s hidden Gita said act but detach from the ending Still I grip outcomes like faith’s not sufficient -- Rumi said right and wrong’s only a veil Still I treat conflict like somebody failed Tryna hold water in tightening nails Then wondering why every system derails If I don’t solve it, the whole thing breaks If I don’t stand still, the whole ground shakes Every oath that I spoke got a soul and weight Now I’m losing my breath tryna hold that shape -- I know perspective’s supposed to be medicine Stoics already said suffering’s sediment Nothing is permanent, nothing is settled yet Still I catastrophize every sentence said --- ### [Female — soft, grounded] The river does not fear the bend The night does not resist the end Lay down the weight you cannot keep Even the shepherd sometimes weeps --- ### [Verse 2 — male] I carry guilt for events that ain’t happened Future-tense pain in imagined reactions Tryna build peace with a mind full of static Tryna give love while my nerves keep collapsing -- Buddha said clinging’s the root of the suffering Still I grip tighter when life gets uncertain Ecclesiastes already confirmed it Time heals and kills and rebuilds every person I don’t fear effort, I fear disconnection Fear that my flaws leak into affection Fear I’ll be measured by failed expectations Not by the countless returns and corrections -- Maybe I confused devotion with control Maybe I thought love meant carrying the whole load Maybe I forgot I’m one life, one soul One temporary voice in a story untold I been tryna earn peace through performance Like worth can be bought through importance Like if I exhaust every ounce of endurance Maybe I’ll finally deserve reassurance -- But Tao said muddy water clears if it’s resting Still I keep stirring the bowl while it’s stressing Trying to force every word into blessing Then losing the meaning while overexpressing -- And I know love isn’t fixing all pain I know care doesn’t mean controlling all change But when you seen storms come and level whole plains You grip too hard every time sky looks strange --- ### [Female — melodic, almost transcendent] No single hand Holds up the sea No single heart Carries destiny The lilies still grow Without demand Grace was never Built by your hands --- ### [Bridge — stripped down] ### [Male] I’m still learning How to love without panic How to speak without static How to soften the damage -- How to stop treating hard moments Like permanent endings How to stop seeing fear As prophetic pretending Paul said love’s patient I pace when I’m threatened Psalms said be still I get still for a second -- Then right back to scanning the edge of horizon Like vigilance somehow can keep people thriving Like if I relax for a moment, disaster arrives and Everybody I love pays the price of my silence ### [Female] Be still and know ### [Male] Yeah… I’m trying ### [Female] Return again --- ### [Final Chorus — duet] ### [Male] Maybe love’s not perfection projected Maybe love’s what remains when protection gets questioned Maybe love is the act of returning connected After ego and fear leave the signal congested ### [Female] Again Again Again ### [Male] Maybe healing’s not sudden ascension Maybe wisdom’s repetitive tension Maybe peace is not found in controlling conditions But loosening grip while maintaining intention ### [Together] Again Again Again We begin again --- ### [Outro — female] You were never asked To carry the whole world alone Only to love well And return when you lose your way