First Memory Girl

Chorus I’m still me, still soft, still strange still don’t fit in your little frame I tried hard just to play that game it felt fake, I won’t do that again I’m still me, no filter, no mold too awake, yeah I’ve been too old for that shit they all got sold I won’t fold, I won’t fold Verse 1 2:17 and I’m staring at the ceiling phone light on, yeah I hate what I’m feeling thinking ‘bout the girls that get picked with no reason and I’m in my head like “what am I missing?” tried to be sweet, tried to be easy tried to be chill, tried to be breezy wore what they wore, said what they feed me damn… that version of me felt queasy I was hungry for a look, for a like, for a label sat pretty at the edge of the table laughing when I wasn’t even able just to prove I was stable Pre-Chorus ooooh, you ain’t gotta change me ooooh, you ain’t gotta fold me ooooh, you ain’t gotta save me I already chose me Chorus I’m still me, still soft, still strange still don’t fit in your little frame I tried hard just to play that game it felt fake, I won’t do that again I’m still me, no filter, no mold too awake, yeah I’ve been too old for that shit they all got sold I won’t fold, I won’t fold Verse 2 maybe I’m cold, maybe I’m distant maybe my aura make ‘em all listen maybe I scared ‘em, didn’t even know walking around like a storm in snow or maybe I made it all in my mind hallucinating being left behind either way I was wasting my time tryna shrink something divine ‘cause I’m not built for the basic script can’t fake laugh, can’t counterfeit I tried normal, I almost slipped lost my voice, almost quit Pre-Chorus ooooh, you ain’t gotta change me ooooh, you ain’t gotta fold me ooooh, you ain’t gotta save me I already chose me Chorus (bigger, more bite) I’m still me, still loud, still rare don’t get picked, I don’t really care I been me, I been right, I swear they just scared, they just scared I’m still me, no mask, no code too alive for the shit they sold I don’t bend, I don’t break, I don’t I won’t fold, I won’t fold Hook (stripped, hypnotic) First memory girl, yeah I move too deep say I’m too much, but I never sleep in a world that’s numb, I don’t play pretend I’d rather be alone than be liked by them First memory girl, yeah I feel too wide whole damn ocean they can’t define if I don’t fit, then I won’t begin I’d rather be me than belong to them Outro I wanted to be that girl… easy to love, easy to hold… but I’m not her… and I think… I think that’s the point. 🌙