I wake up heavy, chest already bruised Scrollin’ through the news, another one of us reduced To a hashtag, a headline, a “thoughts and prayers” excuse They kill us in the streets, then kill us online too Black skin, trans body—double the target on my back They smile in my face at work, then misgender me when I turn around like that Clock in at nine, clock out feelin’ dead Dreams cost too much and rent still due, so I’m grindin’ instead Sick and tired of bein’ sick and tired Soul on fire, but the world keep pourin’ water on the wires I’m so tired… Lord, I’m so tired Of buryin’ my people, of swallowin’ the fire Tired of smilin’ through the pain, tired of pretendin’ I’m alright Tired of lovin’ men who leave when bein’ with me don’t feel light Tired of blood money jobs, tired of prayers that don’t work Tired of family that say “I love you… but” I’m so tired… somebody carry me tonight Grandma don’t call no more, says my womanhood a sin Uncle post memes ‘bout “real women” like I ain’t his kin Thanksgiving table got colder than the grave I bring my laughter wrapped in pain, they still turn away And these men—God, these men Say they want something real till real got stretch marks and trauma and bills Kiss me in the dark, ghost me in the light Tell me “You’re different” like different mean they don’t gotta treat me right I give my body like communion, they take it like communion wine Leave me empty on the floor, wonderin’ why I even try I’m so tired… Lord, I’m so tired Of buryin’ my people, of swallowin’ the fire Tired of smilin’ through the pain, tired of pretendin’ I’m alright Tired of lovin’ men who leave when bein’ with me don’t feel light Tired of blood money jobs, tired of prayers that don’t work Tired of family that say “I love you… but” I’m so tired… somebody carry me tonight Mirror show a warrior, but warriors get weary too Eyes red from cryin’, voice cracked from prayin’ for somethin’ new They lie on my name in rooms I’ll never enter Say I’m too this, too that, too loud, too tender I just wanna lay my head down without the weight of the world Wanna be held without bein’ told I’m not somebody’s girl Wanna breathe without somebody wantin’ me to justify air But every day another fight, and I’m runnin’ out of prayers So if I go quiet, don’t think I gave up—just restin’ my fight ‘Cause even roses gotta close sometimes to make it through the night I’m so tired… yes, I’m so tired Of carryin’ my people, of swallowin’ the fire If I don’t make it to tomorrow, just know I tried Know I loved y’all, know I cried Know I was sick… and tired… of bein’ sick and tired Lay me down gentle… I’m so tired…
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