[Cold Open / Hook Before The Hook] You didn’t lose me You threw away me Now you call it healing Like I was the disease You didn’t break clean You buried the proof Then told everybody I gave up on you [Verse 1] You made me feel crazy For wanting the truth Like I was the problem For catching you move I lowered my voice I swallowed my pride I apologized first For the shit that you lied You got to leave clean With your innocent face I got the same apartment And all of your blame [Pre-Chorus] And I hate that I begged I hate that I stayed I hate every damn thing I forgave [Chorus — distorted guitars bloom heavy] You didn’t lose me You threw away me You had someone good And you fucked it for nothing I hope it hits late When the lights all die When you reach for a body And remember mine You didn’t lose love You didn’t get free You threw away someone Who would’ve died at your feet [Verse 2] You tell all your friends I was hard to love Like I didn’t go broke Trying to be enough Like I didn’t hold you When you hated yourself Like I didn’t bleed quiet So you looked well Now you post your new life Like I was the cage But I was the one Taking hits from your rage [Pre-Chorus 2] And I’m done being kind I’m done playing dead I hope my name rots In the back of your head [Chorus — bigger, angrier] You didn’t lose me You threw away me You had someone good And you fucked it for nothing I hope it hits late When the lights all die When you reach for a body And remember mine You didn’t lose love You didn’t get free You threw away someone Who would’ve died at your feet [Bridge — stripped, bitter, almost spoken] I hope you miss the small things The keys by the door The way I knew your silence Before you knew yours I hope the lie gets heavy Every time you explain How I was too much When you gave me the pain I hope you hear me laughing When your new thing gets old When the high stops working And the bed gets cold Don’t call me bitter Don’t call me mean You don’t get to gut me Then ask me to bleed clean [Final Chorus — huge doomgaze wall, desperate anger] You didn’t lose me You threw away me You had someone good And you fucked it for nothing I hope it hits late When the lights all die When you reach for a body And remember mine You didn’t lose love You didn’t get free You threw away someone Who would’ve died at your feet [Outro — clean guitar, tired voice] You didn’t lose me You threw away me Now you call it healing Like I was the disease You didn’t break clean You buried the proof Then told everybody I gave up on you
