[Verse 1] I sit real still in the dark of my room Hands on my knees like I’m holding a wound One voice says, "fine" One voice says, "sink" I swallow the static and count every blink The ceiling leans in The air tastes like rain My name feels чужой Like it slipped down the drain I know these walls I know this weight But something inside me keeps changing shape [Pre-Chorus] Pressure on pressure It builds in my chest I try to say "stop" But it bites through the rest One thought says, "go on" One thought says, "leave" And I can’t tell which one is killing me [Chorus] There’s thunder in my head Thunder in my head I am not the one who said I am not the one who said "Hold on" / "let go" "Run" / "don’t move" I’m caught in the storm And I’m splitting in two Thunder in my head Thunder in my head I’m drowning in the parts I never chose [Verse 2] Memories flash like a broken white wire My father’s silence, my own little fire Fear in the doorway Anger in the hall Exhaustion dragging its nails down the wall I hear "you’re a mess" Then "you’re doing great" Then "you’re too much" Then "it’s getting late" Intrusive and cruel Soft as a knife They wear my own face and they call it my life [Pre-Chorus] Pressure on pressure The room starts to bend I cannot tell where my voice even ends One thought says, "fight" One thought says, "freeze" And every sentence turns into a plea [Chorus] There’s thunder in my head Thunder in my head I am not the one who said I am not the one who said "Hold on" / "let go" "Run" / "don’t move" I’m caught in the storm And I’m splitting in two Thunder in my head Thunder in my head I’m drowning in the parts I never chose [Bridge] [Drop to near silence] No storm Just breath Just the way in my ribs Just how long I’ve been holding this I hear the black cloud move I hear my own pulse shake But I’m still here I’m still here [Breakdown] If I can stand in the wreck If I can name the fear Then the noise is not my ending It’s just what I live through here [Harsh Growl] NOT MY ENDING [Final Chorus] There’s thunder in my head Thunder in my head Still alive inside the wreck Still alive inside the wreck "Hold on" / "let go" "Run" / "don’t move" I’m made of the storm But it doesn’t own me too Thunder in my head Thunder in my head I have survived every storm that called my name [Outro] Broken, angry, scared I’m still here Broken, angry, scared I’m still here I may be shaking I may be worn But I’m still here After every storm
