[Intro — spoken / low energy] Yeah… I don’t yell much. I just… stop caring. And that’s worse. [Verse 1](Beat fades in — slow piano + heavy kick) I don’t trust smiles, they usually come with a knife Every “I got you” in my past had a price People say relax, but they don’t live in my mind Where every little tone change feel like a warning sign I read messages twice, looking for hidden intent If you pause before replying, I assume what you meant You said “I’m fine” — yeah I heard that before That’s the same sentence people use right before they walk out the door I overthink kindness, I question every hug You say you care about me, I wait to see the shrug I’ve been replaced easy, like I’m background noise So now I keep my distance even from good people’s voice And I hate that… I know some of y’all real But my brain keeps receipts my heart don’t wanna feel I push away help before it gets close I don’t show anger… I just ghost. [Hook] I got anger I don’t show I just let the distance grow I don’t scream, I just go cold Turn my feelings into stone Small things hit like war You don’t even know what for I ain’t mad at you alone I’m mad at everything before I got anger I don’t show Buried deep, never told Every time I start to care I start preparing to be alone [Verse 2] You ever snap over nothing then sit there confused? Like why that tiny comment put me back in old rooms? A joke about leaving — now my chest feels tight ’Cause everybody that I loved disappeared overnight I memorize patterns, I study behavior Soon as you get close, I expect the betrayal You bring me peace, I still wait for the pain I’m calm on the outside but a storm in my brain I don’t fight people, I emotionally shut down Mid conversation, I mentally skip town You’re talking to me but I’m not even there I’m reliving old nights in a silent despair And I know it ain’t fair… You didn’t hurt me back then But I punish new hearts for the sins of old friends I build high walls, then wonder why I’m alone I don’t show anger… I just go numb. [Hook] I got anger I don’t show I just let the distance grow I don’t scream, I just go cold Turn my feelings into stone Small things hit like war You don’t even know what for I ain’t mad at you alone I’m mad at everything before I got anger I don’t show Buried deep, never told Every time I start to care I start preparing to be alone [Bridge — melodic / half-sung] I don’t need fights, I fight inside Every memory still alive You say “stay”, my mind says “run” I sabotage what I love I want peace but expect goodbye So I leave before you try If I detach I can’t get broke That’s the anger I don’t show… [Verse 3 — more intense delivery] I ain’t heartless, I’m defensive Pain just made me hyper-sensitive I react fast, that’s trauma reflex Every raised voice put me back in old stress I hate when someone treats me kind ’Cause now I got something to lose in time You see affection, I see risk Every good thing got an ending twist So I test people without them knowing I do Pull away slightly just to see if you pursue And when you don’t — yeah that confirms my fear When you do — I still think your exit’s near I want connection but I fear attachment I want honesty but expect abandonment I don’t throw punches, I don’t explode I just slowly disappear down emotional roads. [Final Hook — louder drums] I got anger I don’t show I just let the distance grow I don’t scream, I just go cold Turn my feelings into stone Small things hit like war You don’t even know what for I ain’t mad at you alone I’m mad at everything before I got anger I don’t show Buried deep, never told Every time I start to care I start preparing to be alone… [Outro — beat fading] If I ever push you away… It’s not always you. Sometimes I’m fighting ghosts you can’t see.
