Survival on Repeat • SpaceGhostBones

[Hook] This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me, ay I don’t want the ending, I just want release But the harder I fight, the harder it feeds [Verse 1] Been crying all morning feel like I’m stuck in mourning mourning a life I never got to live grieving a future I had to give back yeah I’m sad like I’m in my head like wish I were dead like that’s what I said like and I don’t mean it like ending it all I mean I need a break from carrying walls I mean if I could just be done that’d be enough but the minutes don’t stop they just double the cost and I’m lost in a loop with the guilt on repeat like no matter what I’ve done I got nothing to keep and I’m tired of the silence that they sell as peace it’s a leash in my throat and it won’t release me [Bass drop] (...) [Hook] This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me I don’t want the ending, I just want release But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me I don’t want the ending, I just want release But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah [Verse 2] Every breath like a debt every step like a bruise every scar in my chest like a bill I can’t choose and the truth is I’m breaking but they call it “you’re strong” like a badge for the suffering I been wearing too long and I’m sick of the script that they hand to the sick take the pill, take the blame, take the weight, make it quick but my bones don’t forget and my nerves don’t forgive and the curse in my blood says this how we live [Bridge – spiral build] Not dead but I’m not alive either (either either) ghost in the mirror can’t fight what I inherit so I carry it nearer to the marrow to the name to the wound I repeat every step in her shadow like it’s glued to my feet (My feet, my feet, my feet) [Bass drop] (...) [Final Hook – layered/screamed] Yeah, This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me I don’t want the ending, I just want release But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me I don’t want the ending, I just want release But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah Oh Oh oh oh oh Oh Oh oh oh oh [Verse 3] Been crying all morning feel like I’m stuck in mourning mourning a life I never got to live grieving a future I had to give back yeah I’m sad like I’m in my head like wish I were dead like that’s what I said like and I don’t mean it like ending it all I mean I need a break from carrying walls I mean if I could just be done that’d be enough... [Hook] This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me I don’t want the ending, I just want release But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah But the harder I fight.... But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds The harder it feeds