I wish I was normal I wish my body was whole It's like I got a void in my soul Love pours in and straight out through the hole It drains the love that I hold It hollows the heart that I know I wish I was normal I wish my body was whole I'm alive, I'm still alive But when I'm trying to stand my will's always breaking It'd be easier to cry I swear I'm doing my best, but I'm just tired of failing I'm alive, I'm still alive But when I try to leave my bed's always pulling It'd be easier to die I swear I'm doing my best though my heart's not willing I wish I was normal I wish my body was whole It's like a vice grips my chest And it holds onto it as if it'll never let go I hope the dark slowly flows Away from my guts for a minute of rest I wish I was normal I wish my body was whole I'm alive, I'm still alive But when I'm trying to stand my will's always breaking It'd be easier to cry I swear I'm doing my best, but I'm just tired of failing I'm alive, I'm still alive But when I try to leave my bed's always pulling It'd be easier to die I swear I'm doing my best though my heart's not willing How do people feel without pain? Are they just numb all the time? How do people live without pain? Do they all just fucking deny? How the fuck do they live without pain? Is there anything left to replace this dread in my brain? I'm alive, I'm still alive But fuck, I'm tired of just trying to survive I think I'm failing Will you hold me, I'm tired of crying I'm alive, I'm still alive But fuck, I'm tired of just trying to survive My heart's not willing Will you hold me, I think I'm dying
