I still remember picking you up, Little mohawk, looked just like me. Every Friday you'd test the waters, Tiny raging attitude powerful little stare Cross your arms and stomp away, Thinking you'd won another round. I'd just smile and let you breathe... Soon enough you'd calm back down. Then you'd wander through the hallway, Little hand reaching out for mine. Funny how a minute changes What felt like the longest time. Spaghetti all across the lounge room, More on the floor than on the plate. while i cleaned the mess... Those memories still taste the same. Phoenix running circles round ya, You'd laugh until you went red in the face. If I'd known those days were numbered... I'd have treasured every second and taken photos everyday only thing ive learnt over the years time doesn't heal tears, scars and pain only teaches you how to carry on day to day without breaking down everytime all memories remind you of times that slipped away That isn't something you leave behind. It's something you carry... Every pain every single day. memories never leave those who experience these everyday standing strong are the ones that hold the unbearable pains of times that couldn't be kept or saved Every Christmas brings your birthday, That's why Christmas cuts so deep. Everyone sees lights and laughter... I count the years I couldn't keep. How you are at school? will you learn to drive ? Find someone to love? wish I could teach you how to ride a motorbike i missed them times that can't replaced Not because I wanted to.. Because life took us different ways. Then life gave me two little girls, Never needed blood to call them mine. Every afternoon i'd pull in the drive ,the oldest one would. block the door Bouncing up and down like she'd explode. "Dad... Dad..... Guess what happened today!" it Didn't matter That story was coming out anyway. I laughed every time. Now she's grown into herself. Couldn't be prouder if I tried. Self styled haircuts, dance moves and altered recipes she would always ask me to try.......... the little one Used to crawl up the steps Hands and feet... Now she's all just legs and a head. Every time I see her...she's getting taller I say stop growing." she looks up rolls her eyes... not my blood but has the same staunch stare memories that make me laugh....... "I'm never coming out" to "theres a whale in the bath" the night bike ride made me so proud,torch gave up we only had the street light... Ordinary moments from all three That turned into precious memories away. I hope with age I never forget I always hoped... One day... You'd all be together. One family. One table. One life. Three kids... One son. Two girls. Every one of you... Changed my life forever. If one day you hear this... Don't remember me for what I couldn't be there for. Remember this... I never stopped loving you Not once. A father doesn't move on time doesn't heal tears, scars and pain only teaches you how to carry yourself day to day without breaking down everytime all memories remind you of times that slipped away
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