MY ADHD (neurodivergent Mix)

[Verse 1] Four hours gone Side track mid sentence Back at square one Fighting my own presence Self sabotage on repeat regular occurrence They talk about the speed but only see the blur They don't know the roots or the gears I incur The dumb is panic to me stand a practice The world keeps turning on a tilted axis It isn't just a rat race, running automatic Static on the frequency, searching for a sequence A fractured pattern with a violent allegiance I'm staring at my plate while the prefrontal is racin' Pistons runnin' ', burnin' through the casing Double shift in my skull before the kettle even clicks Wires crossed, logic lost, tangled in the mix I don't find peace in the quiet, I find it in the ride The noise is the baseline, I don't try to deny it Every junction unpredictable, blind spots infinite Welcome to the structure, I'm just tryna live in it [Bridge] Getting frustrated I know exactly what I should be doing But my brain already decided we're doing something else I come back later I need to find inspiration I need to feel the moment, the art of creation I need to stay interested just to keep my brain stabilized Look beyond the mundane smoke, most people simply accept [Verse 2] Other sitting in office all day, calm, cool, collected Me, I'm bouncing off six walls and there's only four in the room Sometimes my brain is on fire, overworks itself into a mess I try to reset physically, mentally But my brain already moved on, on to the next I wake and think more about breakfast Than most people process in a day My brain is constantly in overdrive But to me, that's normal, it's every day Used to be called the outcast, always the disruption Why do you keep doing that, what are you doing this for? Believe me, I was trying just to be normal I had to try ten times harder, I'm not trying to be the standout Not trying to be the center of the room, but I Always seem to be the one they notice And they always get the wrong impression The feeling of impulsivity isn't something you recognize in the moment You don't realize you're intense, you don't realize you're coming across over the top Not until it's pointed out And it's a sudden realization Wrapped in deep regret [Outro] I've got it And before I realize it, it's all gone wrong I've got it And before I realize it, it's all gone wrong It's all gone wrong It's all gone wrong Push a cup off a table or let it fall by accident And the cup still smashes Intent doesn't change the damage But reverse the roll, I'm actively trying to save the cup And it slips through my fingers anyway I still cause the offense Even when I was reaching out to save it