I’m [not] Ok 𓆩♡𓆪

Verse 1 Smile on when they look my way Yeah I'm fine is what I say Report cards and the texts I miss All the names on my failing list Pre-Chorus They keep stacking, stacking weight Every "you should" and "you can't be late" Every door I close, they open more Saying "try harder" like before Chorus But I'm ok, I'm ok That's what I say, what I say While I'm breaking, while I'm caving I'm ok, I'm ok Nodding yes when I wanna scream Drowning quiet, chasing sleep I'm ok is a lie I pray They'll believe so they'll go away Verse 2 Laughing loud in a crowded room Counting cracks up on the ceiling too Everyone needs something from me No one asks what I need Holding up what they expect Dropping pieces that I can't collect Pre-Chorus 2 And I'm scared if I tell the truth They'll leave like everybody else does too Chorus But I'm ok, I'm ok That's what I say, what I say While I'm breaking, while I'm caving I'm ok, I'm ok Nodding yes when I wanna scream Drowning quiet, chasing sleep I'm ok is a lie I pray They'll believe so they'll go away Bridge I'm tired of being tired Tired of being strong Tired of holding it together When it all feels wrong I'm tired of pretending That I'm not bending I'm tired of the ending Where I say I'm fine Verse 3 - soft Maybe one day I won't have to lie Maybe one day I won't have to hide Maybe one day someone will see Past the "ok" and sit with me Final Chorus - stripped I'm not ok, I'm not ok But that's not what I'll say I'm not ok, I'm not ok Can someone hear it anyway? I'm not ok, I'm not ok Can someone stay anyway?