Sorry about the lapse in posting new work. I'm sure you'll be happy to hear that I've got the last two songs (and a bonus) of my EP "IN GOOD STANDING" finished, and coming out shortly. I've also got a 'Features' LP in the works as well, with A song written and in production, and one completely done. This is alongside my usual scrawlings I do by myself when I'm bored. I'm really trying to push production quality and myself as a writer as I go along. I'm sure you'll all love/hate what I make with that. IN GOOD STANDING coming soon. Sider loves you. PS. If you want to hang out with me (and others) join that Discord I reference in like 4 songs at this point. https://discord.gg/F6kdbWAdHS \\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\ [Intro] [Plain Speaking] Yeah, I’m good. No, yeah, I’m fine. I just do this thing where I leave my body and the rest of me is like, sitting there nodding at you. [Verse 1] [Punk female] [Spoken-Edge Delivery] Been nodding at a story I stopped hearing at the start of it Paper cup confetti in my palm, a little party trick You ask me how work is, I say “busy,” I've been practicing. Pick the safest lines, never touch the red option Eyes on a spot just behind you on the wallpaper Smile got a timer, laugh a half a second later Room too bright, small talk a little like a razor I keep shaving down the truth until the answer comes out safer Uh, I say “for sure” for the fourth time, jaw tight Doorframe looking like a shoreline, alright Driveway in my head with the car lights on bright Bed calling dibs on my corpse for the whole night I know when I’m home I’ll be sick of how I handled it Thinking of the perfect things I coulda said and shit Every little syllable gets bagged up and examined Nothing even happened, but I'm really good at panicking [Pre-Chorus] [Half-sung, tired] I don’t wanna be rude, I don’t wanna explain. I don’t wanna leave, I just don’t wanna stay. I don’t wanna be alone, I don’t wanna be seen. I don’t wanna go home, I just wanna be me. [Chorus] [Layered Vocals] Speak no evil, I just got good at lying Two-fifteen, front seat, saying “yeah, I had a great time” I would rather hit that wall than have another conversation I hit the wall a lot, I’m just learning where the brakes is Yeah, I crash a lot. But I keep waking up. Yeah, I crash a lot. But I keep waking up. [Verse 2] [Punk female] [Spoken-Edge Delivery] “Great catching up,” didn’t catch a damn thing You said names dates and something about a wedding? I said “that’s crazy,” 'fore I said it twice again Nodding so hard that I almost looked invested I took thirty in the bathroom, counting little tiles Fan hummin loud, I been gone a little while Somebody knocked once, I said “just a minute” Smoking in there practicing my expressions in the mirror Uh, Jacket in my hand like I’m making an adjustment Keys in my fingers like I’m waiting for instructions Someone says my name and I pretend it isn’t there Halfway down the stairs 'fore the sentence clears the air It ain't because I hate you, it's not like I’m above it I'm just burning through my wick when I'm in public Everybody’s lovely, that’s the fucked part of it Makes me feel worse when I still can’t stomach it [Bridge] [Emotion break layer] I’m a little social miracle with really good credentials With a smile so convincing that it’s almost sentimental Nodding like a bobblehead, agreeable and gentle But my brain is in the corner chewing drywall for the minerals But I’m back in the car with the key in my hand Trying not to cry over nothing again Radio low, forehead on the steering wheel Laughing at myself like, “cool, very normal, very chill.” [Final Chorus] [Layered Vocals, bigger but frayed] Speak no evil, I just got good at lying Two-fifteen, front seat, saying “yeah, I had a great time” I would rather hit that wall than have another conversation I hit the wall a lot, I’m just learning where the brakes is Yeah, I crash a lot. But I keep waking up. Yeah, I crash a lot. But I keep waking up. [Outro] [Plain speaking] "I’m not mad." "I’m sleepy though." "I had a good time." "I think that’s the worst part."
