She was there every day Now she’s nowhere at all I got used to the distance Used to seeing her without a voice between us I found comfort just knowing She existed in the room Even silence felt safe When she was near I lean back into the time When she never let me fall When being “us” was enough When I wasn’t alone at all I miss the feeling of being two Of standing side by side Now the days keep taking days And I’m losing track of time She sank into the ground somehow I can’t find her anymore Is it time to let her go Or keep knocking on a closed door I look for her every morning In habits, in streets, in my mind One day turns into another Like they’re all conspiring to say goodbye I trained myself to the absence Told my heart this was fine But safety left with her shadow When she slipped out of my life Is this the moment I forget you Or just the moment I pretend I hope you’re warm where you are now I hope you’re okay in the end I miss the feeling of being two Of knowing I belong Now I’m learning how to breathe In a world where you’re gone She’s gone quiet, gone invisible Like she was never here But I carry every version of you Everywhere Maybe someday I’ll stop looking Stop asking the air to explain Until then I’ll walk with the memory Of loving someone who won’t come back again
