I used to feel the thunder Running wild beneath my skin Now every beat is muted Like it’s scared to start again They ask me if I'm hurting Like I’m breaking into tears But it's quieter than silence It's an echo no one hears I don’t crash, I don’t fall, I don’t run But I don’t feel the fire or the fun I’m not sad — I’m just numb Can’t feel anything — not even love Like a match that won't spark Like a light with no hum I’m not sad — I’m just numb Heard the bell — but I won’t jump No tears, no flood, no drum I’m not sad, I’m just numb They're dreaming in full color Painting futures on the wall But everything looks faded Like it’s stuck behind a fog I miss the rush of lightning Running circles in my chest Now every celebration Feels like quiet second guess Tell me where the spark goes when it’s done Is it buried or is it gone? Maybe healing sounds like nothing Maybe peace is feeling hollow Maybe hearts can beat on empty Until sunrise finds tomorrow I’m not sad — I’m just numb But I know I’m not done If the flame ever comes I’ll be here — I won’t run I’m not sad — I’m just numb But the beat’s not over — not for me If it wakes — let it scream Till I feel what I can’t see
