*male voicemail* Hey, sorry— I know it’s late but…everything’s cool, I’m good. No need to call back or whatever. I’m just checking in before I disappear for a bit. [Verse] I love walking by myself at night Talking to myself to get my mind alright Wish I had a girl I ain’t got no type I wanna be in love but my hearts on strike Got my Head down and I’m zoned out like Maybe I can get a second chance at life Have I always been wrong? Trying to keep my head up, stay strong Dangling off the top like I’m King Kong Want it to stop, but I know they talk I need to get away and shake the weight off And it’s like, I’m on a descent Like someone told my knees They were free to bend Stuck at home with no friends, I’m all alone drownin’ In the deep end Dove in head first for no reason, Into the bottom of a cup that I’m drinkin’, Smile on my face but my teeth clenched Like I’m happy cause it’s the weekend [Pre-Chorus] Will there ever become a time When I’m happy with myself Should I reach out or call for help Maybe if I play my cards right I can deal with what I’m dealt [Hook] They say (They say) Don’t stay up late and overthink (disdain) Too late I think I’m on the brink (this pain) My brain likes playing gaaaaaames With me But aye, I’m okayyyyy I wanna tell you I’m fine sometimes i can’t help to wonder What it’s like on the other side [Interlude] [verse] Cause I don’t wanna feel hurt to the point I’m in the back of a hearse, But darkness kinda cute I can’t help but to flirt. Put me in the box and lay me in the dirt, Pack it in like a fortress made of earth If I’m at peace, it’d probably be the first Not gonna lie, I’m kinda scared All I do is cry, with the weight I bare Don’t wanna die, kinda already there I got my eye, on that rope and chair Pleading with the sky, like it’s truth or dare I just wanna fly, I don’t wanna care I don’t mean to sound ungrateful Im just a little miserable an unstable I ain’t suicidal, I ain’t one for labels Feel like my soul need a reappraisal Was never a man of faith but I need an angel I fear my next move could be fatal [Pre-Chorus] Will there ever become a time When I’m happy with myself Should I reach out Or call for help Maybe if I play my cards right I can deal with what I’m dealt [Hook] They say (They say) Don’t stay up late and overthink (disdain) Too late I think I’m on the brink (this pain) My brain likes playing gaaaaaames With me But aye, I’m okayyyyy I wanna tell you I’m fine sometimes i can’t help to wonder What it’s like on the other side [Interlude] [bridge] Therapists ain’t shit They’re Professional impressionists Pretending to care about me for a paycheck I mean I wanna live but can’t pay my rent, Guess I’ll have to settle for the section 8 house lists If I really told them what I’m feeling. they’d throw my ass in a padded room. my skin is peeling, like, I don’t wanna talk to you. Got me medicated like, bro, I can do that too. They said try meditation like it was something new. I’m already tainted, just need a beat and booth. I just wanna straight mob with the crew. I know I don’t but I feel I deserve this Haven’t eaten for a week, i’m malnourished Wanna take myself out call it self service I just wanna be worth it, but I’m worthless I pray to come out on top, and resurface Will I ever find my purpose If I do I doubt it’ll be worth much Cause… [Hook] They say (They say) Don’t stay up late and overthink (disdain) Too late I think I’m on the brink (this pain) My brain likes playing gaaaaaames With me [outro] But aye, I’m okayyyyy (today) I wanna tell you I’m fine (thats a lie) sometimes i can’t help to wonder What it’s like on the other side (other side) *male voicemail* Hey… it’s me. I know I said I was good. I’m not…I’m really not. I don’t think I can do this by myself anymore. If you’re around… could you call me back? I think I actually need the help this time.
