Closer [Natalie Fades x madcat]

You asked me twice if I was doing bad I said I was good, you said, "No, you are not" I tried to shrug and make a joke of that Then watched it die the second that it dropped We took the stairs up to the rooftop edge The whole block buzzing under dirty gold You read my face reflected in the ledge Like I was saying more than I had told I kept my hands down deep inside my coat I kept my answers trimmed and running thin A train went sliding past with silver smoke You looked at me like you could see within I said, "It's late, you should probably head back" You stayed right there and let the silence live The city blurred in red and faded black You made me feel how much I really hid You do not have to wear that weight alone You do not have to turn your hurt to smoke I know the kind of quiet that you hold I know the kind of words that never broke Come a little closer, let the night lean in Let me be the light that finds your skin Maybe this is nothing, maybe this is love Either way, you do not have to run I looked at your phone screen lighting up your coat You didn't check the text, you just let it sit I felt the cold air hitting the back of my throat I thought about leaving, I almost did But you shifted your feet on the gravel and stayed Your jacket is thin and I saw you shake I’m not trying to fix you or get you paid I’m just standing here for God's sake I can see the pulse in your neck from here You’re holding your breath like it’s all you’ve got It’s been a long year, a really long year And you’re acting like I’m someone you forgot You do not have to wear that weight alone You do not have to turn your hurt to smoke I know the kind of quiet that you hold I know the kind of words that never broke Come a little closer, let the night lean in Let me be the light that finds your skin Maybe this is nothing, maybe this is love Either way, you do not have to run What if I open up and you look away What if you reach the worst and leave it there What if I give you all I could not say And find out I was never meant to share You said something low, I missed the end Whatever it is you’re trying to defend You’re staring at the railing like it’s a map But there’s just a gap, a massive gap You do not have to wear that weight alone You do not have to turn your hurt to smoke I know the kind of quiet that you hold I know the kind of words that never broke Come a little closer, let the night lean in Let me be the light that finds your skin Maybe this is nothing, maybe this is love Either way, you do not have to run I tried to close myself and lock the door You saw the light and waited at the frame Now every step I take feels something more And I am scared by how I want your flame You do not have to run You’re freezing. Just take the side of my jacket ,.. okay Don’t look at me like that. Heh, sorry.