I keep telling myself That I'm finally letting go But every night when I'm alone Your memory comes home I thought I'd get used to waking Without your name beside my own I thought the silence would get easier I thought I'd learn to be alone I deleted all our pictures But I remember every frame I stopped myself from asking If you ever feel the same Then I saw you on my screen Smiling like you've never been hurt Standing there with someone new And suddenly my whole world stopped I'm trying to forget you But I don't know how to start Every time I see you with somebody else It tears open my heart I tell myself I'm over you I tell myself I'm fine But seeing you living without me Still breaks me every time I'm trying to forget you But some memories never die I can close my eyes and walk away But I can't leave you behind Sometimes I wonder if you notice How much I've disappeared I wonder if you ever miss me Or if I'm just a forgotten year You found someone to hold you While I'm learning how to breathe You're becoming someone else's While you're still everything to me And I hate that I still care When I know that you're not mine One little picture of your happiness Can ruin my entire night I'm trying to forget you But I don't know how to start Every time I see you with somebody else It tears open my heart I tell myself I'm over you I tell myself I'm fine But seeing you living without me Still breaks me every time I'm trying to forget you But some memories never die I can close my eyes and walk away But I can't leave you behind Maybe I don't miss who you are now Maybe I miss who we used to be Maybe I'm holding onto a version Of you that only lives in me And maybe one day I'll see your face And feel absolutely nothing No pain, no tears, no memories Just someone I used to love I'm trying to forget you Even though it hurts tonight Maybe letting go doesn't mean That I have to stop loving what was mine I'll let you live your story Even if I'm not a part And I'll slowly learn to carry The pieces of my heart I'm trying to forget you And maybe someday I will But until that day comes I'll let myself feel this still I won't look for you anymore I won't ask who you're with I'll keep the memories quietly And let them slowly fade I'm trying to forget you... Not because I never loved you, But because I finally need to love myself.
