Wait Where did that come from No No no no Get out I was standing at the stove just making coffee, nothing wrong Brain said what if you just touched it, and I thought okay move on But it didn't move, it lingered, painted pictures I didn't commission Drew conclusions from a flicker like it had my permission Now it's running the scenario in hi-def, loop and replay Slow it down and zoom it in and run it back a different way I didn't want to think it, didn't send for it, it just arrived And now I can't evict it and I can't remember what it felt like before it was alive In the back of my skull like it belongs there Like it's mine And I know what this is I've googled it, I've named it I know it doesn't mean anything I know I didn't make it But knowing doesn't stop the film From running in the background And knowing doesn't stop my brain From treating it like fact Like evidence Like something I should act on Get out of my head You don't belong here I didn't invite you I don't want you I don't need you anywhere near Get out of my chest Get out of my hands Get out of the version of me that you've convinced doesn't understand The difference between thinking it And being it Get out Get out GET OUT Now it's jumped to something worse, it found a cousin, brought it over Now there's two of them at dinner and I can't make the night get shorter Every sharp thing in my eyeline gets a what if attached Every height, every window, every second that I'm not distracted I'm not dangerous, I'm horrified, that's the thing nobody says That the thoughts that scare you most are proof you're not the thing you dread But my brain doesn't file it under proof, it files it under maybe And maybe is a hallway that goes dark and long and hazy And I'm standing at the entrance And I really need to Not go in And I know what this is I've read the explanation I know the brain throws garbage just to test your own reaction But the garbage caught a current And the current caught a room And now the room is all I'm in And I need it to stop I need it to stop I need it to Stop Get out of my head You don't belong here I didn't invite you I don't want you I don't need you anywhere near Get out of my chest Get out of my hands Get out of the version of me that you've convinced doesn't understand The difference between thinking it And being it Get out Get out GET OUT Okay Okay It's just a thought It's just a thought It came from nowhere It means nothing It's not me It's not me It's not me It's not me It's not me It's just Noise Just noise Shake it out Shake it Out It's gone For now It's gone
