I talk to the morning Say I need a clean day One week from the synthetic One week from the old haze I drink down the water I eat something light I sleep through the shaking Try to make it right Starts out easy Then it gets loud Voices in the corners Drag the past out Hands like punches Knocking me back I swear I was steady Then I lose the track Damn, that’s quite hard I almost forgot the fight inside my head Fuck, that’s too loud Thought all the drugs were just to feel not sad But this is me sane This is me wake This is me seeing and feel what’s at stake This is me here Clear in my mind Me once again sensing them behind Damn, it’s my choice Just one for the noise Still I try again now Drink more water Eat something plain Keep my phone face down Let the room stay gray I take a long sleep Let the hours pass Then there’s one small pill On the floor at last Starts out easy Then it gets loud Voices in the corners Drag the past out Hands like punches Knocking me back I swear I was steady Then I lose the track Damn, that’s quite hard I almost forgot the fight inside my head Fuck, that’s too loud Thought all the drugs were just to feel not sad But this is me sane This is me wake This is me seeing and feel what’s at stake This is me here Clear in my mind Me once again sensing them behind Damn, it’s my choice Just one for the noise I know what it costs me I know what it takes Every little shortcut Turns into a chain I can call it relief I can call it a lie Either way it owns me If I let it decide So I stand in the room With the fear in my throat And I name what I’m losing Before I let go Damn, that’s quite hard I almost forgot the fight inside my head Fuck, that’s too loud Thought all the drugs were just to feel not sad But this is me sane This is me wake This is me seeing and feel what’s at stake This is me here Clear in my mind Me once again sensing them behind Damn, it’s my choice Just one for the noise Damn, it’s my choice Just one for the noise
