[Intro – Spoken Word over eerie ambience, slow build of reverb guitars] “I forgot how to pray, so I started screaming…” [Verse 1 – Low vocal, tense and intimate] I stitched my mouth shut with a crucifix Bit down so hard, I cracked the guilt in it Every night I wear my skin like a costume Pretend I’m not rotting in this rented tomb My head’s a house with no electricity Still I wander the halls like a ghost with dignity If there’s a god, he’s a fuckin' absentee I put my faith in a noose — at least it listened to me [Pre-Chorus – Gritty sung delivery, distorted echo behind it] You said pain makes you feel alive Then why does it make me feel like I already died? I’m praying backwards, screaming quiet My heaven’s just a cancelled riot [Chorus – Soaring and broken, clean vocal with underlying scream layer] There’s a god-shaped hole in my chest I tried to fill it with drugs and sex But it just keeps growing teeth Gnashing through what’s left of me I was born with a warning sign Now I sleepwalk through the landmines I’m not okay, I just confess it better than most [Verse 2 – Screamed, with tension in rhythm and phrasing] Drag me out from my own anatomy I’m a tenant in a failing strategy My blood’s gone sour, my lungs just echo I chase the hurt ‘cause it’s the only thing that’s real, though [Break – Whispered, like thoughts in a panic attack] Is this growth, or just decay with better lighting? I can’t tell the difference anymore… [Chorus – Full scream at the climax, then clean repeat] There’s a god-shaped hole in my chest I tried to fill it with drugs and sex But it just keeps growing teeth Gnashing through what’s left of me I was born with a warning sign Now I sleepwalk through the landmines I’m not okay — I just market it better than most [Bridge – Breakdown, chaotic, distorted guitar drop and layered scream] You want the truth? I want out. I want peace. I want doubt. I want to feel like more than this skin Like maybe I matter — or at least fit in (Heavy final scream line:) I PRAY TO NOTHING ‘CAUSE NOTHING’S WHAT I GOT [Outro – Clean, emotional, fading instrumentation] And if I disappear tonight Tell my demons I said good fight I wasn’t trying to win — I just didn’t wanna lose alone
