Hey my diamond, I love you more than anything, and the songs aren't meant in a bad way. I am so full of worries and thoughts about you. When I don't know what's going on with you, I really fall apart. I can't sleep again, my thoughts are spinning in circles again, and I am just so terribly worried about you and so afraid of losing you. When we talk, you never make me feel like that, but when I don't know what's going on with you, where you are, and how you're doing... I simply have so many feelings for you, and my worries are so immense. You are such a special person to me, someone I don't want to lose. Please don't be angry and give me a sign that everything is okay. You are simply indescribable. I just want to accompany you on your path, through good days and bad days alike. I just need messages from you to get through the day, because otherwise I really break down. I want to talk to you about everything again. I firmly believe that we will make it through together. I find it just as unfair that we aren't together. Please don't make me feel like you're not telling me everything, that you have secrets. My mind isn't always grounded either, and that makes it so hard for me. Ever since you collapsed after the surgery and stayed overnight in the hospital, I've been completely off track and my worries have grown beyond measure. Ever since then, I've been spinning out like this. I know it often annoys you, but I just wanted to share my thoughts with you. I would even take a picture from the hospital, anything, just to know that everything is okay. It would be great if we could send each other pictures again like we used to, just to feel close to each other. I want to be with you forever. Propose to you—or rather, propose to each other—and be happy at the end of our days. That is my biggest dream. The fear of losing you is simply so immeasurable. Please give me a sign. Please.
