The Struggle Within

[Hook:] Why can't something just be mine? Is it wrong to want that? Everything from You, but I'm Trying to leave my own mark (Repeat) [Rap Verse] Woke up this morning, same old internal fight Trying to align my will with the divine, but it don't feel right They say in Him we live and move, our being intertwined But there's a part of me that's scared of what I'll leave behind Ego tripping, or just human nature? Wanting recognition in the grand Creator's feature I know it's all from You, every breath I take But this urge to carve my name, it's so hard to shake [Hook:] Why can't something just be mine? Is it wrong to want that? Everything from You, but I'm Trying to leave my own mark (Repeat) [Rap Verse] Caught in this paradox, losing myself to find me Drowning in Your ocean, yet fighting to breathe free It's not rebellion driving me, just fear of fading away In the vastness of Your love, will there be price to pay? For holding on too tight to what I think is mine When everything's a gift, on borrowed time I'm grateful, I swear, for all You've done But this need for self, it weighs a ton [Hook:] Why can't something just be mine? Is it wrong to want that? Everything from You, but I'm Trying to leave my own mark (Repeat) [Rap Verse] They preach surrender, letting it all go But there's a voice inside that's shouting "no" Wanna make my mark, leave something behind But they say true identity in You I'll find It's messing with my head, this cosmic dance Am I just a puppet? Do I stand a chance To be something more than just a vessel? With these thoughts I'm trying to wrestle [Hook:] Why can't something just be mine? Is it wrong to want that? Everything from You, but I'm Trying to leave my own mark (Repeat) [Rap Verse] I'm tired of feeling like a mere conduit Everything from You, through You, about You, I admit It's exhausting, and I know I shouldn't feel this way But honesty's the price for authentic faith, they say So here I am, laying it all bare Struggling with a love beyond compare Help me want to lose myself in You While keeping what makes me, me, too [Hook:] Why can't something just be mine? Is it wrong to want that? Everything from You, but I'm Trying to leave my own mark (Repeat) [Outro:] I'm sorry, I'm trying, help me see That losing self in You sets me free But until I get there, I'll keep it real This is how I think, this is how I feel [Rap Verse] I'm tired of feeling like a mere conduit Everything from You, through You, about You, I admit It's exhausting, and I know I shouldn't feel this way But honesty's the price for authentic faith, they say So here I am, laying it all bare Struggling with a love beyond compare Help me want to lose myself in You While keeping what makes me, me, too [Hook:] Why can't something just be mine? Is it wrong to want that? Everything from You, but I'm Trying to leave my own mark (Repeat) [Outro:] I'm sorry, I'm trying, help me see That losing self in You sets me free But until I get there, I'll keep it real This is how I think, this is how I feel