It’s midnight when nothing fits right but the memory of your hand I stare at the ceiling, waiting for a sign I know won’t land Room full of everything we wanted, pawned for a war inside my head Sleep rolls in, drags its chains, leaves me tossing in the wreckage of the bed Tried rewinding every detail, how you looked back at me at the door I thunder out words I shouldn’t say, then call your name to the walls like before I burn through all the reasons this should stop, but my body just won’t take the hint Love’s a fever in the bones, sweat drips, eyes wide, still chasing what we can’t admit I swear it off by 2AM, bargain with the gods to let me heal But I’m still living these reruns, wound tight to every spin of the wheel So let the night drag me over the coals Let the hours break me down, ‘cause I can’t let go You’re not in this room but you haunt every night I beg the dark for mercy, it just turns out the lights And I fight, and I fight, damn right, I fight Just to get through another one, alone There’s a lonely kind of thunder only old hearts know I try to outrun what we were, and that pain beats me slow I make bargains with the emptiness, strike deals for a dreamless sleep But I’m a gambler who never folds, losing chips that I still keep If you called, right now, I’d pretend there was no price I’d rip tomorrow apart, spin the clock back out of spite But I know that wanting you’s a sentence, never lifted, never done Still I return every midnight, trial by darkness, hell by dawn So let the night drag me over the coals Let the hours break me down, ‘cause I can’t let go You’re not in this room but you haunt every night I beg the dark for mercy, it just turns out the lights And I fight, and I fight, damn right, I fight Just to get through another one, alone One more sunrise, same old story, burned out and raw Didn’t find peace, didn’t find sleep, saw the shape of what we lost Tonight, tomorrow, again and again I’ll battle through the night till I forget how it ends
