I was the queen of everything Body like a fever dream Nothing that I couldn't be All the doors open for me Hits on silver in the V.I.P. Laughing while I lost my peace Every toast a little thief Stealing what was left of me But you never saw me Shaking in the bathroom stall Leaning on a stranger’s wall You never saw me Without heels And no dress No makeup on my face Walking to the bottle with a glass in my hand My soul as dark as it gets Drowning all my regrets Since my twenties Everyone knew my name People used to scream it in the crowd at the stage Even when they didn't know my face It was the best and worst thing that I could claim Happy hour turned to every night Red eyes in the morning light Whiskey hiding in my purse Sipping just to calm the hurt But you never saw me Throwing up in someone’s car Crying ‘cause I’d gone too far You never saw me Without heels And no dress No red wig on my skull Walking to the bottle with a glass in my hand My soul as dark as it gets Drowning all my regrets Since my twenties Countless promises of love Exchanging pieces of who I was Of who already was in pieces and needed someone to get up Out of heels Without dress No makeup on my skin Once again Walking to the bottle with a half full glass in my hand My soul as dark as it gets Shutting up all regrets… Since my twenties (And for another twenty more)
