No Turning Back

[dun.. dun, dun dun ,,,dun dun] [instrumental] [tkch] [dud../.] [tkch] [ching] [gund.. dun du- du -dun-dun][tkch] [tkch] [ooo] [tkch] [Verse] I have a bad life No turning back now I better just keep doing what I'm doing [Bridge ] I better just I better just [Verse] I have a bad life No turning back now I better just keep doing what I'm doing [Shout] I'm a dog Barking at the moon Sister tried to reach me But I wasn't in the mood Said "I'm doing everything I can" She raised her hands Said "Pray for you Amanda" She said "I hope you're doing well" I said "If you mean by well that I might go to Hell" My mother's worried Aging in the night Hope there's misunderstood and future tape and holy water and the Christ I was her dying hope (hey, hey, hey, hey) But ere the elders crown me their dead goat (hey, hey, hey, hey) Uptight and white (hey, hey, hey!) That's right (hey, hey, hey!) I'm fucking white (hey, hey, hey!) [Verse] I have a bad life (That's fucking right) No turning back now (I'm fucking white) I better just keep doing what I'm doing I have a bad life No turning back now I better just keep doing what I'm doing [Spoken Word] Because I went thirty years not being loved Right? So You know I definitely didn't have a mom loving me Making sure that like I was loved And I was nurtured Nope Not me So Of course What do I do? I go out and I find the first person That will show me any sort of that love Nurturement (?) And I think that's okay That's good You know And that kind of goes on with me just needing to feel good