[Intro — glitchy synth, distorted notification sounds fading in] (Whispered) They're watching. They see me. ...keep going. [Verse 1] Posted at 2AM Just to feel the pulse reply Something in my chest unlocks Every time the numbers rise I know it's hollow I know it's borrowed light But when a stranger says my name It feels like I'm alive [Pre-Chorus] And it's wrong I know it's wrong But the silence is so much worse So I give a little more And a little more Until I can't tell what hurts [Chorus] I hate how much I need this I hate how good it feels Showing everyone my open wounds Just to prove that I'm real I know I'm disappearing Piece by piece by piece But at least when you're all watching Some part of me exists Some part of me exists [Verse 2] Curated every angle Every flaw I let them see Even my breakdowns get a filter Even pain is strategy I said too much again But the comments said stay So I cracked myself open wider And I smiled while I frayed [Pre-Chorus] And it's wrong I know it's wrong But the silence is so much worse So I give a little more And a little more Until I can't tell what hurts [Chorus] I hate how much I need this I hate how good it feels Showing everyone my open wounds Just to prove that I'm real I know I'm disappearing Piece by piece by piece But at least when you're all watching Some part of me exists Some part of me exists [Bridge — music drops to bare synth pulse] There's nothing left to post That isn't already gone I've been feeding you so long I forgot what I was feeding from And the worst part is Even now Even saying this out loud I'm checking if you're watching I'm still performing for the crowd [Final Chorus — quieter, broken, not triumphant] I hate how much I'll miss this I hate that it was real These strangers knew my darkness Better than the people who could feel I know I'm disappearing But maybe that's okay Maybe losing all of you Is how I find my way Is how I find my way [Outro — notifications cutting out one by one, then silence] (Whispered) I'm still here. I think.
