The Pain Don't Sleep

**(Hook)** The pain don't sleep, it just waits till the nighttime, Brain won't breathe, every memory rewinds, Heart still aches when the daylight declines, I can hide it from the world, but it finds me every time. The pain don't sleep, it just creeps through the silence, Same old grief, different night, same violence, I can drown it in the music, I can bury it in rhymes, But the second that the beat stops, I can hear it in my mind. **(Verse 1)** 2 A.M., eyes red, wide awake with the weight, Mind racing through the memories I desperately escape, I been staring at the ceiling while the seconds accumulate, Every tick another reminder that I can't negotiate fate. I can fill the room with music, put the headphones on blast, Try to drown the recollections, but the echoes hit back, Every melody reminds me, every photograph attacks, And the present feels temporary while I'm trapped inside the past. I got conversations with a brother that I never got to finish, Got a list of things I'd tell him if I ever had the minute, Got a thousand little moments that I wish I could relive, And a heart that keeps expecting that you're somewhere where I live. People think that grief is crying, but that isn't always true, Sometimes grief is getting angry at the smallest thing you do, Sometimes grief is being happy then remembering you lost you, Sometimes grief is feeling guilty just for having something new. **(Hook)** The pain don't sleep, it just waits till the nighttime, Brain won't breathe, every memory rewinds, Heart still aches when the daylight declines, I can hide it from the world, but it finds me every time. The pain don't sleep, it just creeps through the silence, Same old grief, different night, same violence, I can drown it in the music, I can bury it in rhymes, But the second that the beat stops, I can hear it in my mind. **(Verse 2)** I been learning that the hardest battles happen after everybody leaves, When the house gets quiet and there's nothing left to make believe, When the conversations end and all the distractions disappear, That's when every buried memory starts becoming crystal clear. I can work until I'm exhausted, I can stay awake for days, I can fill another notebook, I can disappear inside the haze, But no matter what I do, there is a shadow that remains, 'Cause you can't outrun the absence of somebody in your veins. And I'm tired of pretending that the pain is getting smaller, Maybe I'm just getting stronger at surviving when it calls us, Maybe healing isn't losing all the hurt that came before, Maybe healing means the pain don't control me anymore. So tonight I'll let it hurt, let the tears come if they need to, I won't treat my grief like something I should always hide from people, You were worth every tear, every sleepless fucking evening, And I'll carry every scar because they prove that I was feeling. **(Bridge)** The pain don't sleep, But neither will I, I'll keep breathing through the darkness, I'll keep reaching for the light. The pain don't sleep, But it won't take me down, I'll carry what I lost Without letting it bury me now. **(Final Hook)** The pain don't sleep, it just waits till the nighttime, Brain won't breathe, every memory rewinds, Heart still aches when the daylight declines, I can hide it from the world, but it finds me every time. The pain don't sleep, but I'm learning how to live, Learning how to hold the memories without letting them imprison me, I can't erase the heartbreak, can't undo what happened then, But I'll wake up every morning and I'll carry you again.