I talk to the morning Tell it give me a clean day Seven days off the synthetic Seven days from the old haze I gulp down the water Eat something plain Sleep through the shaking Try to stay sane Starts off easy Then it gets loud Voices in the corners Pull the past out Hands like hammers Knocking me back I swear I’m steady Then I miss the track Damn, that hits hard I almost forgot the fight in my head Fuck, that gets loud Thought the drugs were just to keep me from sad But this is me clear This is me awake This is me seeing what’s at stake This is me here Straight in my mind Me again, feeling them close behind Damn, it’s my choice Just one for the noise Still I try again now More water, more plain Phone face down Let the whole room stay gray I take a long sleep Let the hours drag Then there’s one small pill On the floor in a bag Starts off easy Then it gets loud Voices in the corners Pull the past out Hands like hammers Knocking me back I swear I’m steady Then I miss the track Damn, that hits hard I almost forgot the fight in my head Fuck, that gets loud Thought the drugs were just to keep me from sad But this is me clear This is me awake This is me seeing what’s at stake This is me here Straight in my mind Me again, feeling them close behind Damn, it’s my choice Just one for the noise I know what it costs me I know what it takes Every small shortcut Turns into a chain I can call it relief I can call it a lie Either way it owns me If I let it decide So I stand in the room With the fear in my throat And I count what I’m losing Before I let go Damn, that hits hard I almost forgot the fight in my head Fuck, that gets loud Thought the drugs were just to keep me from sad But this is me clear This is me awake This is me seeing what’s at stake This is me here Straight in my mind Me again, feeling them close behind Damn, it’s my choice Just one for the noise Damn, it’s my choice Just one for the noise
