Hey… It’s me. Ghost Girl. I’m still spinning. I know. I said that already. But I don’t know how else to explain it. I’m not gone. I’m not hiding from you. I’m just… somewhere inside my own head trying to figure out which way is up. You don’t have to come find me. Actually… please don’t. I wouldn’t know what to tell you if you did. I don’t need you standing out here in the dark with me. Go inside. Get some sleep. I’ll be okay. Or… I’ll figure out how to be okay. Just leave the light on the front porch for me. You don’t have to wait there. I know where you are. Leave the light on… That’s enough for me. And when I’m ready… I’ll come sit next to you. Some nights I can almost feel myself coming back. Then my mind starts moving again. Around… and around… and around. And there I go. Spinning. I know it’s hard to love somebody when you don’t know where they went. But I’m still here. Somewhere. So don’t chase me. Don’t wait outside until morning. You don’t have to understand what I can’t explain yet. Just… leave me something I can see when I finally look up. Leave the light on the front porch for me. You don’t have to wait there. I know where you are. Leave the light on… That’s enough for me. And when I’m ready… I’ll come sit next to you. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe not. I don’t want to promise you something I don’t know yet. But I know that light. I know that porch. I know the way back. I just need a little time to find it. So leave the light on the front porch for me. Go inside. Get some sleep. You don’t have to save me. You don’t have to wait. Just leave the light on… And when I’m ready… I’ll come up those steps. I’ll sit down beside you. Maybe I won’t say anything. Maybe… I won’t have to. I’m still spinning. But… I can see the light from here. I’ll come sit next to you when I’m ready. Love, Ghost Girl.
